Talks Shortcomings, Deliverance & "Dear Future Me"
Christopher Heron, blackgospel.com ~
Months after James Fortune's
8th album, Dear Future Me, was released, it continues to
spawn hits. I Forgive Me was followed by Favor of God,
which is at its highest position on Billboard's Gospel Music
charts at #16.
Now, Fortune has released a new CD on top of that called The
Collection XIV with guest vocals by Zacardi Cortez,
Monica and Fred Hammond and Le'Andria Johnson. It
also includes Favor of God.
But, back to Dear Future Me. This breakthrough CD, resonating
with music fans of every persuasion, is the transparent tale of
a man and his turbulent season characterized by separation,
confinement and serious counseling. Unlike previous releases,
Dear Future Me represents a catharsis of sorts for Fortune,
enabling him to melodiously express his mistakes, speak to his
shortcomings and declare his delivery from the mess that nearly
marred his future.
What's one really interesting thing about
you that would surprise most people?
Well, for the last 11 years I've been
a pescatarian, which means I don't eat any meat other than
seafood. So, no chicken, no turkey, no pork, no beef for the
last 11 years.
Was that inspired by healthy living?
It was a combination. Healthy living
was one reason but then then I did some research, I saw a PETA
video on how animals are treated and that made me look deeper
into how meat is prepared, things that go into it, how they
allow animals that are sick to be sold for meat. So it had a lot
to do with health as well as cruelty that's done to animals.
You're a born and bred Texan. Is there any
other state, city, or country that you love?
I would say Atlanta. They've been
supportive as so many other cities. It's a second home. Of
course, one of my best friends in the world lives there,
Isaac Carree, so sometimes we're just hanging out. It's not
always work. I really just love the city.
(The official video for "Favor of God"
was shot with Atlanta's Zacardi Cortez along with the Clark
Atlanta University Mighty Marching Panthers. Filmed on campus.)
You've been sporting the dome (bald head)
for many years. When did you take that final step to embrace it?
In my early 20s. I was cool with it. I
actually liked it better once it was all gone.
Has there a lot of people who've mistaken
you for JJ Hairston? He said he got
mistaken for James Fortune a bit.
No, that never happened until
recently, probably about 4 or 5 years ago when I started hearing
it more. That's when people started making that mistake.
One last question. What's one album
that really resonated with your spirit?
Travis Greene's album, The
Hill. His song, You Made a Way, was one that I would
have on repeat. The whole album for me was really special. It
really touched me. The writing, the production, the way it was
put together. That was my top album I had on repeat.
The album and title track is called,
Dear future Me, what are you talking about?
I'm speaking into the future for
everyone who's felt like they no longer had a future. I think
that's one of our biggest fears. Sometimes, we're thinking
what's the plan God has for us? Does God have a plan for me at
all? Do I still have a future after a failure? Is there favor
for me after failure? Is this the last chapter or are there more
chapters to my stories? And if there are more chapters are those
chapters going to be as painful as the ones I experienced in my
What I went through, in the last 4
years was one of those things that happens in your life that's
traumatic. We all have problems. We lose a job, or go through
divorce. There's so much hurt and pain and agony and trauma in a
divorce. When you go through something like that, it's hard to
see light at the end of the tunnel. For me, it made me spend
time with God, so He could show me that my steps are still
ordered by Him, that nothing just happens. If we can have the
right attitude, God will make those experiences work together
for our good and for His glory.
What was the hardest part you endured
these past years? Was the hardship that your life was being
played out before the public or was pain tied to being separated
By far, the separation from my kids
and the divorce, the publicity are all difficult. But what's
tougher than dealing with the public is dealing with yourself.
When you make a decision that hurts you, that's bad, but when
you make a decision that hurts everyone else, people you love
and people you're connected to like your children and your
family, that's the worst.
When you realize that you're accountable, that's hard to deal with
because you're looking at children who are innocent, who have
nothing to do with any of the drama you're responsible for.
Their lives are being changed because of it. That's the hardest
part. The public thing, that's tough for anybody, but it's not
nearly as bad as having to look in the mirror and deal with
yourself and the people and lives you've affected and changed
James Fortune & FIYA's'
official video of,
"Favor of God"
James Fortune & FIYA's'
official video of,
"I Forgive Me"
You hear so much honesty and transparency
in your lyrics Was that intentional? Did you have a story that
you wanted to share?
When I went through counseling and
therapy for the past three years, one of the most difficult
things I discovered about myself was lack of accountability.
It's always easy to point the finger at other people. God had to
check me and say, "Stop worrying about what's not true and let's
deal with what's true. Let's be accountable for what you did
As people, we spend so much time justifying our actions and minimizing
our mistakes and never really dealing with our issues. We're too
busy talking about other people's problems. We never take time
to say, "I need to look at me." So as I was receiving counsel,
I'm writing. That's therapy for me.
So a lot of these songs you hear is me writing through the journey. When
you take a song like Dear Future Me, you're hearing some
of the thoughts going through my head. Will I ever smile again?
I don't know. I'm not talking about the smile that we put on for
Instagram. I'm talking about the smile that's coming from the
inside. So the lyrics that you're hearing is me writing through
the process. I sent the lyrics to my producer and musicians. It
was this journal that turned into songs.
What were some of the most valuable
lessons learned through counseling,
on the road to recovery?
One of the things that helped me
through therapy was the whole accountability message. Once I was
able to take accountability for my own action it didn't matter
at that point what people had to say, it didn't matter who
didn't forgive me. Of course, we all desire to be forgiven when
we make mistakes or wrong decisions but at the end of the day I
can't control people, I can't control them, I can only control
So, when I was able to admit it out of my mouth and be able to say that
over and over in therapy, I was able to break free because I
realized God had forgiven me but I hadn't forgiven myself so I'm
carrying around a lot of shame, walking with my head down or
walking around like I've got to apologize to the world.
At the end of the day, once I took accountability I was able to break
free from shame, resentment and regret. I was able to begin
healing. A lot of times we just move on, we're good at
suppressing things. But for me, when I was able to say, "I was
wrong. I made decisions that as a husband, as a man of God, as a
father, I should have never done." I was wrong and I've got to
deal with it." When I did that, I took accountability and
started owning my own mistakes, it started healing me and
allowing me to see that God had a future for me.
Would you say that you're in a
good place today?
I will say I'm in a great place.
Going through divorce was difficult. You have people choosing
sides, so relationships change, circles change, but I will say
I'm in a great place first and foremost because of my
relationship with my children is strong. That's great and that's
something that was so important to me. To be able to still be
with my daughters, my son, and to show them an example that you
can fall but you don't have to stay down. It's what you do after
you fall. I talked to my son and daughters extensively about
everything, I let them know the good, the bad, and the ugly.
At the end of the day, that's not the end of the story. I wanted them to
see their father may have committed mistakes but at the end of
the day, he showed us that you can still get back up. You can be
a better man and father than you ever were before and a better
example of a man of God, just giving them a visual
representation of what that looks like.
What is one takeaway you hope listeners
will have after listening to Dear Future Me?
I want people to walk away from
listening to this album saying, "I still have a future and my
future is brighter than my past." I've been going to a lot of
jails and prisons lately with this message. There are people who
feel like they have no future. Their criminal records aren't
going anywhere. At one jail, one guy raised his hand and said,
"How do I forgive myself, how do I still have a future? Should I
just say I forgive myself?"
I said, "Forgiving yourself is verbalizing it. Don't allow memories to
produce pain towards your future." That's how I want people to
walk away from this record. Of course they're going to dance,
they're going to jam, they're going to worship on some of these
awesome tracks. But at the end of the day, I want them to
realize "This is James and he bounced back. He was wrong. He
admitted he was wrong and he got up. He did the hard work, he
dealt with himself. Not once did I hear him make excuses for his
actions or blame anybody else for his actions. Instead he got up
and God is still using him, so God can still use me if I make
those choices too."